A birthday and that stupid house

Today is my hubby's birthday.

I was really hoping on that whole house thing to be his present.

Sorry 'bout that babe. Instead you get mopey me!

Keely drew him this "Birthday Bug".  I said, "Keely do you want to draw daddy a picture for his birthday?" She said, "yes" and this is what she drew with no help or prompts from me. We are, as always, so impressed. She's just shy of 3.

The little cake even has candles…and 3 of them, just like hers will soon. Too cute.

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Now, thank you all for all the nice things you said about the house and for wishful thinking and also for being a little excited with me. You all made yesterday even more exciting than it was. Of course, we are a bit down today.  I usually try to respond to everyone individually via email but I don't always have the time to do that so I'll answer a few questions some of you asked here.

We are not going to bid again because it is getting a bit too rich for our poor blood. We could technically bid again, but  #1. There are now 6 or 7 other bidders (all with more money than us for sure. and #2. If we did win we might not have enough money up front to fix some things that really needed to be fixed in the house before we moved in ( the bathrooms, kitchen, some water damage). So, we are bowing out sadly.  It is a bit hard to let go of the big dream so abruptly. We have been so worked up over it for almost 2 months. The house has been fully moved into, remodeled, and decorated in my mind. I really saw us living there. I have been a bit drunk with all the pretty thoughts and now the high is over.  We never thought we'd be able to own such a large, historic, and neat property so with this one dangling in front of us we were feeling quite optimistic. That is rare for us.

We kept saying, "No way could WE win this bid." but we said it with a little smile and a glimmer in the eye.  When we found out  that our bid had been upset we were both kind of floored and shocked and that's when we realized we had both secretly been thinking that we were gonna win it.  It is nice to know that our usual pessimistic selves had the optimistic thought. I know it's not the end of the world. It was just a house. In the scheme of things that ARE important (our family, our health etc.) the house is nothing.  I know that these sorts of things don't really matter in "the big picture." I do believe that things usually work out for the best. I know we'll find something else eventually. 

We are trying to decide what we want to do now. We had previously been thinking (pre neighbors noisy pool) that in 10-15 years we would buy a giant farmhouse in the country. Then, the noisy pool came and we decided we have to move much sooner. Then, we found THE house and we decided we'd win that baby and move to it next summer.

So now we are going to start looking for a similar (ha! good luck with that) property. It would be financially better for us to buy something in a year or two. That sounds so boring though. I can't get jazzed up about "in a year or two." Anyway, we are still considering having another child and the hubby does have a new job starting in September and our current home (inside) is quite cozy (translate:small) and nice. If we find something soon that be groovy, but I guess we need to just find a way to be happy in the now and trust that we will find something perfect for us when the time is right. blah, blah, blah.

The hubby suggested I take one of the farm house photos and put it in as a new blog banner but photoshop in a whole bunch of grafitti all over it. That's the spirit hon! No bitterness here.

bye bye farmhouse, bye bye

If I could play a little bit of old school Boys II Men here, I so would.

sing it with people: "Although we've come to the end of the road, still I can't let you go. It's unnatural. You belong to me,  I belong to you."

That's right I am a corn muffin! and proud! 

 

 *I'll draw a name for the free turtle tomorrow probably.